What can I do?
There is a lot you can do. I can not say what you have to do. I will tell you two things that I am convinced of:
1. Getting through your pain, booze, or drugs will take serious effort and serious commitment.
2. You can make it.
Fire me a post. Will share what I can. My name is Chaz.
I found my freedom from addiction and alcoholism through the 12 steps and fellowships of AA and NA. I can’t tell you it is for everyone. Yet I do not know who it would not help.
There is no shame in being an addict or alcoholic. You may have been born that way and it only took starting with your substance to complete the circle. Maybe you find yourself different than your friends who can stop when they want to. Can you? How many times have you tried and then returned to your drinking or using? Even when you wanted to stop… could you?
Making the admission is not easy. Yet it is essential. Why not start here and now? I made the admission a few years ago. Sobered up, cleaned up. But then returned to my stuff. Why? Because I thought that since I was clean/sober for a year, I could drink/use responsibly now. Wrong. It got worse. Sound familiar?
I finally was beat enough by the pain. Emotional, financial, relational. I finally admitted on a deeper and broader level that I was powerless over my booze, drugs, and the thinking habits that got me there. I am now clean and sober a few years.
Life is great. It can be for you too.