Drugs?
I am a cocaine addict.
Never in my wildest dreams did I think I could use, let alone become addicted. But one night… wrong time… wrong place… wrong emotional state… wrong company… wrong blood-alcohol level… and an attitude of invincibility and desperation… I “tried it out”.
After that one time, any time I was sad or mad, all that came to mind was the euphoria of the moment the coke hit my system after lighting up. Within a few times I was hooked. Within a few months, my life was completely out of control. My family did an intervention. I went to treatment. Got clean. Relapsed. Suffered. Got desperate enough to find out what it really took for me to get clean and sober and stay clean and sober.
That was a few years ago. I am still clean and sober. There is hope. There are ways.
Chaz,
From our first few communications through wordpress,you have already shared things I needed to make myself aware of, and your feedback has been so greatly appreciated! I took the liberty of adding your blogsite to my blogroll. What you write is worth reading by the many who are lost, alone, or afraid and trying to get on the right path. Thank you so much for sharing your life in such an open and honest way.
Mark
Ya… no problem Mark. Link away. I am freely passing around what was freely passed to me. Glad it has had some meaning to you. Will continue to dialogue bro. Fire me a message any time.
Ciao. Chaz
Chaz,
I saw you on old TV EXplorer’s Latino lover parade of lust, and thought I’d check your blog out.
I saw AA in your blog as I honesty skimmed down, and it reminded me of a great friend. I saw a light in his eyes like I was seeing God. He’s in AA and a MD and almost 85 with a million health problems, he doesn’t have much longer…but I saw light, it was amazing. Provided me with faith or something to run after.
My dad’s been in AA for years. I started when I was 13–what did I know then? I’ve been in and out, but congrats on staying sober, that’s huge, as if you didn’t already know!
Thanks for your honesty too.
I wish you were a bella, ciao!
Mea Nada Madison
Thanks Nada….
Have read some of your posts on TV Exp’s blog. Sounds like you are on quite a journey. I appreciate your honesty as well and can relate to the emotions you speak of.
It is amazing what life throws our way. And the journey through stuff is what I have found makes life interesting and from these things we grow. Even if painful.
See you on the blogs.
Ciao.
Chaz